Wonderful Daydream

An after glow of
shiny teeth, framing their
smiles and housing seductive
giggles.

Eight ladies, in different
shades of hair and skin
portraying lust, hushed tones
and secret sins.

Listening to the excitement
a small party behind the wall
A birthday or something.

My mind wonders off, and
I can’t help but thinking:
‘Are they doing it?’.

So, after a disastrous weekend, today started good. After an insanely hot shower, due to the fact that I was still sleepy, and therefore tried to mix the hot and cold water tabs with my eyes closed, I got to work. Over the last couple of weeks I’ve been sort of managed by two people, one of which granted me a lot of freedom, whereas the other wants stuff done, and is on top if things.

By comparison, right now I seem to flourish best under the latter. Structure makes me work, and gives me - false perhaps- a sense of purpose. As faith will have it, I’ve been transitioned to work directly under the ‘yay structure’ boss. So, today I set off from home, clutching a new notepad in one hand, and a watch in the other. I’m very happy with all the trust and freedom that is granted me, however, I’m not entirely sure whether that was my most productive era so far. It is great to have so much freedom, but what if the vastness of a particular environment seems so big, so incredibly large, that it becomes a prison? Without bars, but still you’re unable to move out of sheer unknowing.

This first day with structure was fun. It gave me quite a good feeling to tick of things from my to do list. I did not feel pressured, or stressed. I wonder how long that will last

As for the title of this blog…I transquoted this from a comedian. Partially I think he is right; people do, knowing or unknowingly,a lot out of self interest. However, is this wrong? If you can’t see it harming others, is it so wrong to atleast take a shot at getting what you want? As long as we’re all aware of the fact that we’re the same that way, dare I say equals to one and other, it shouldn’t really matter?